Heavy Heart 5-22-13
This past weekend I was really sad and cried a lot. More than I have in weeks. My heart was heavy and now I know
why. On Sunday I had received a
phone call from Rowan’s Mom. If
you know me well you know that I don’t carry my cell phone with me or look at
it all the time. I actually will go
a day or two without it. Anyhow, I
had a missed call from Rebecca. It
came in Sunday evening. I didn’t
look at my phone until Monday afternoon.
When I saw the missed call I checked her blog to see what was up. There I read it. Rowan had passed away on Saturday May
18th at 12:15 pm. I
broke down and cried. I knew my
heart was heavy and this was the reason.
I knew this was coming.
Just like I knew it was coming for Kathryn but I always held on to that
hope just like I did for Kathryn.
Rebecca’s blog before this last one had described Rowan’s condition in
such a way that I could picture Kathryn in the same state. I could also picture Rowan in this same
state. But it was so hard to hear
that another beautiful little girl had been ripped away from their loving
family. Another child who was so
sweet and loved so much. Why? I will never understand. Rowan passed away in the hospital with
her Mom (Rebecca) and Dad (Chuck) holding her. Watching your child take that last breath is the hardest
thing to witness.
So Chuck and Rebecca have Rowan’s ashes with them as they
are taking a road trip. They just
need to get away. It will be
difficult to go home. The home
where their little girl laughed and played. It will take time.
I don’t know where all they will go but I certainly offered a place for
them to come to if they end up out this way. They need your prayers for comfort as their world has
been shattered.
I also got word on the t-shirt sales. It didn’t go as well as I thought it
would but we did make $110 dollars for Camp. There was a lot of confusion when the store opened and I
never received a flyer about it.
This time I have a flyer to send out and hopefully this will make it less
confusion for people. The store
opens May 24th and goes through June 7th and will have
delivery on the 21st.
Richard called today to tell us a little story about his
day. While he was on campus today
(May 22nd) a girl came up to him. She said, “You don’t know me but I knew your sister
Kathryn. I came across a letter
the other day that Kathryn had written to me and it was special. She said
Kathryn was a really awesome person.”
Richard shared this with me with excitement in his voice. I was glad to hear that
excitement. He thought it was so
cool that this girl should come up to him like that and introduce herself to
him to tell him about the letter and how special his sister was. This lifted my heavy heart. I feel so good that this girl had the courage
to some up to a young man that she didn’t even know to share such a sweet
message. Richard thought it was
very special too. I don’t know
exactly how he feels as he doesn’t talk about it. His loss is deep though. I don’t want to pry but I will someday. I know I don’t want to go with
unanswered questions and concerns as I did with Kathryn. My only regret is not talking to her
more about her situation. We just
tried so hard to make every day a happy day.
Have a wonderful holiday weekend! Be Safe!
This is Rowan at 21/2. She was 41/2 When she passed away. I love this picture with the ice cream on her darling little face.
So sorry to hear about Rowan...I'm glad you are there for her parents and can share your experiences with them.
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