A lot Going on! 4-20-13
We had a nice little birthday party for Scott at our neighbor’s restaurant in Lakewood. Great food and friends. Richard and Bee came down and joined us. I love seeing them.
Monday (April 15th) Taxes are done! Wow, It took an hour and a half with the taxman. I had everything organized and all ready to go. Just think I hadn’t spent all of those hours organizing it would have taken over two hours and that would be a lot more money too!
Monday night I was walking up the stairs to go to bed. As I walked I thought about Kathryn and asked her to come visit me again. Show yourself to me or come to me in a dream. It brings me so much peace and comfort. Then I said, “Don’t show yourself right now,” I may get scared and fall down the stairs. When I went to bed I prayed that I would see Kathryn or dream about her. And I did. In the last dream she was the age that she was when she left us. This time she was younger, like 2. She and I were doing things together. We were playing and making cookies and different things. There was no way I was going to leave her side. I knew she was there just for a visit. I even told Scott in my dream that I was spending every second with her that I could as she could be gone in an instant. I held her and rocked her. I touched her arms and little fingers. It was so special and comforting. I woke up happy and feeling satisfied. It was a warm and wonderful dream. I hope I continue dreaming of Kathryn forever.
On Tuesday or so I got this notice on FB. It was from Richard. Richard thinks my FB was hacked or something. Anyhow it was from messages from back in January of 2012. That was when Kathryn was in the hospital. I thought I would share it. Arranging Visitors 1/2/12 Kathryn is feeling pretty good today. She had a great sleep. Not having a bunch of drugs in her seemed to help her sleep. Bob the RT turned down the ventilator for a while but is now taking a rest. They will continue to do this and try to get her to the point of no vent pressure. This of course will be closely monitored. She is scared about not being able to breath. She went through some real bad trauma when they removed the tube and she fears this happening again. She finally allowed some friends to stop by this morning as they are driving back up to Bellingham and won’t be around for a while. She asked them questions and had some good smiles for them. She even kind of laughed just a quiet laugh. Another friend is on her way in right now. This is good for her spirits. We are happy she is allowing some friends to come by. Doctors are still saying a new cuff on Tuesday to allow her to talk. Typing on the computer is working for now.
I thought it was really strange that this should all of a sudden be on my FB page.
Maybe it was Kathryn messing with it and reminding me that she is here. It was a good post and made me feel good. We had hope and could see the positive.
I have been talking to the t-shirt people. They finally have the shirts where you can see the designs. Let a cure rain down still doesn’t show all that great but the others do. When you click on a shirt a separate photo comes up of the design. Here is the website again. I guess I put an extra letter in it last time. We haven’t sold enough to make a lot of money for Camp so please consider buying on and passing on the notice to others. The store closes on May 2nd. The store is named Kathryn “Panda” Bradley.
My Mom was down on Wednesday. She spent the night. I wish I could have spent more time with her. I had conferences that evening so I didn’t get home until 8pm. We still had a good time with the little time we had. She is so fun to be with. I don’t think I realized this as a kid. That’s probably because she was being a Mom and taking care of things. But I see it all now and enjoy her so much.
I also received some bad news this week about myself. I was told on Thursday that I have severe osteoarthritis. Not just a little and not just some but severe. I was told I had a lot of bad stuff going on in there (meaning my right hip). Basically the cartilage is falling apart. I’m thinking about hip replacement. I don’t want to take a bunch of drugs that “may cause lymphoma, lung cancer and all kinds of other stuff.” You know if they may cause, they have caused in the past with other people. I’m not looking for a band-aid but a more permanent fix. Not afraid of surgery so I should get this done. I haven’t talked to my doctor yet as he was out of town and will be back on Monday. I’ve only been reading. I don’t have time to mess around with this not being able to walk or run. I need to move freely! Still going to the gym as I have a goal to make by July. I’m getting there and will not let this get in the way.
Handling health issues is hard but when you think about how much others have gone through and have come out of it fine or even better I can’t think of this as anything more than just a little hick-up that I will get rid of. Our friend is in the hospital because of 30 or more seizures over a two or 3-day period. It took 5 to 6 days to get them completely under control. Her strength and positive attitude are inspiring. Now she is doing rehab to get back to walking. I will never forget watching Kathryn have a seizure. It is the most helpless feeling. There is nothing you can do. It’s hard to think a person having a seizure let alone 30 or more in such a short time frame. Please pray for our young friend. She also has multiple myeloma. Thanks to her first cancer treatments at 13 she now has this other stuff. Yes, cancer treatment causes other cancers and other diseases. It took Kathryn!
My trainer at the gym made the comment about me meeting a lot of really amazing people. Yes, cancer has brought a ton of amazing people into my life. It took one amazing person from me but it also brought a lot of amazing people into my life too. I told her that the people who deal with cancer are positive strong people. The people who volunteer at cancer events are the most warn and giving people you will ever meet. Then I went on to say that we have met people at the track too who are the friendliest and most wonderful people too. We have met a lot of people who are caring and loving. We are blessed to know all of these people. I’m talking about you!!!
Richard is busy teaching classes as he finishes his last quarter at Western before student teaching. I’m sharing a project with him that I do in class each year. Kids love it because they get to eat in class. But the great thing is that they all do the project and they really get it. It’s is what I do with my lowest level math kids. It draws interest and gets them involved.
Have a great day! Be thankful for all that you have, friends, family and health.