8 Months Oct 2, 2012

8 Months Oct 2, 2012

Today marks 8 months since Kathryn passed away.  I can’t believe it has been so long already.  Soon there will come the days that I have engraved in my brain.  The last day of work, the day Kathryn was given 3 to 6 months to live.  Our last time to carve pumpkins together.  Our fight to Houston and so on.  My Mom gave me a little book to read that is a daily reading type of book.  I will write down my dates in this book.  Scott’s Mom did this to remember special dates.  I will write down good happy dates too. 

Change is happening and I was reminded of change the other day.  My friend from work got her hair cut and sent me the picture of her in her new style.  It is very cute and she wears it well.  But she wasn’t sure about it and said she would have to just get use to the change. Somewhere in there she said, “You know all about change.”  And yes I do.  I am probably the one person in the world who really doesn’t like change but I have had to accept huge changes in my life whether I like them or not.  I had told my friend about my Mom coloring her hair and how she really didn’t like it at all at first.  Now she has grown use to it and likes it better than the grey.  I like it too.

Picking Medical Insurance was something I had to do recently too.  I sure liked my old insurance but Obama doesn’t seem to think I deserve the insurance I had even though I paid over $1,000 a month for it.  I just don’t get this.  I was told that everyone has to pay.  Wasn’t I already paying?  So now I pay about the same for less coverage.  This really sucks.  If I had this insurance at the time Kathryn was going through her treatments I would have had to pay so much more.  It would have made things pretty difficult.

At school we have a class called Advisory.  This class meets twice a week for 20 minutes.  Our students stay with us for the two years they are at our school.  I was asked if I would take a student from another class since she just didn’t fit with the other students in this other class.  The other teacher felt sorry for her not having anyone in the class that she fit with.  We gave the girl the option of moving to my advisory or having a friend in my advisory moving to the other class.  Well, she moved into my class.  Her name is Kathryn.  What a strange deal.  But it doesn’t end there.  Today I asked her what her middle name was and she replied, “Elizabeth.”  Now, if you remember this is the name of Richard’s girlfriend’s sister who also died from a brain tumor.  I wrote about how it would be nice if they ever had a little girl to name her Kathryn Elizabeth.  But of course it would be up to them.  I couldn’t believe this was her name.  Especially because she wasn’t assigned to my advisory and your advisory students never change.  This was so unusual for a student to change advisory classes and she chose to move into mine.  Weird!

On that note my neighbors still have the ghost in their house.  This is the ghost that we believe is Kathryn. 

I watched the Long Island Medium this past Sunday.  I actually watched several episodes.  There was one where the family lost a 24 day old baby and the baby was able to come through and let her Mom know that she is ok and there was nothing she could have done to keep her from dying.  There was also a man on the show who was there to understand death.  He has pancreatic cancer (a very deadly type of cancer).  He came to the Long Island Medium to find comfort in knowing that there is another life after this one.  He needed to know that he would be greeted by friends.  He needed to know that he would be safe in death.  He got everything he came for.  This also made me feel good.  Kathryn is not here in her sick body but in her spirit living a beautiful life, not here but with God.  She is with loved ones and friends and probably making new friends.   That is how Kathryn would work it.  She would be friendly and kind making all kinds of new friends. 

I’m off to bed so Good Night