August 21, 2012
Yesterday I received a phone call from a lady I met over a
year ago. She was selling sweaters
at the Breast Cancer walk in Bellevue “Making Srides” that I would work at
through Wired. She said she had my
card in her bible and prayed for Kathryn every day. Kathryn had so many people praying for her. She called to see how Kathryn was doing
and of course I had to tell her what had happened. She said she was afraid to call and this was why she was
afraid. I told her I was really
glad she called. We talked for
about 10 to 15 minutes. I almost
didn’t answer the phone as I was just heading out the door for a meeting with
my yearbook rep. I told her about
Rowan and told her to now pray for Rowan and her family. She took down Rowan’s information and
said she would now pray for Rowan.
I promised Rowan’s link so here it is: http://www.giveforward.com/RowansCancerFund
I
worked on school stuff the rest of the day after meeting with my yearbook
rep. I had a lot of cry time
again. It is hard to be at home
and have it quiet. My mind goes to
Kathryn always.
Later
in the day I turned on Dr. Oz and who should be his guest but the Long Island
Median. Oh boy did I listen. I took it all in and really cried. Listening to her really made me think
that Kathryn is here listening and watching. I really hope she is here. I would love to meet with this lady sometime. I wish I had her talent. Maybe I will
get it some day. Maybe I will
learn how to connect with Kathryn
I
also received this beautiful poem from a friend. This poem I have put down here for you to read. The words are perfect for how I have
been feeling. They really touched
me. It’s at the end of the blog.
Today
(Tuesday) I got up and thought I would get a bunch of stuff done. My stomach wouldn’t let me. I felt sick most of the day. Got sick a little. This always starts out the same with a
headache, neck ache and then the sick tummy. I can’t function like this and spent most of the day on the
couch. Scott pointed out that
every time I am planning something that I would normally do with Kathryn I get
this way. Well, I am going camping
on Thursday and today I was planning on shopping and organizing. Getting food ready and such. Yes, normally this would be a great
time with Kathryn and I guess my sickness is my body’s stupid way of I don’t
know. I guess I get sick thinking
about our fun activities and her not being here with us. Is it stress or depression? I don’t know. But it sucks. I haven’t slept well for days now and hope
tonight I can sleep by taking some advil PM. My doctor renewed my prescription for my sleep aid and I
don’t know exactly what day it will arrive. The original one couldn’t be refilled until September 11th. I told him I couldn’t go on not
sleeping that long. He is a great
doctor and truly understands my situation.
I
finally felt a little better around 3:30 or so. I was able to get some things done so tomorrow I won’t have
so much to do for camping. Richard
will be here tomorrow to help.
He’s a good man. Scott
brought me flowers. He’s a good
man too. I’m lucky to have the two
of them in my life.
Good
Night!
Dear Carol, as always, you continue to inspire us, cause us to shed tears with you, and warm our hearts. We are so very fortunate to have you in Rowan's corner rooting for her and garnering help for her. With profound gratitude and much love, Rowan's mommy
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