Twenty-Four Weeks 7-12-12
The walking in the morning sure helps me. It gets me up and going. I’m so glad I started doing this. It helps my mind and is helping me get strength back. Sharing stories is good too.
When I get home Princes knows that it is her turn to walk. Yesterday we ended up walking with our neighbor Young. She is a young Korean woman who doesn’t have many friends here. Her entire family is in Korea. I should reach out to her more. I also stopped and talked with another neighbor who had a stroke about the same time as my Dad. They didn’t expect him to live more than 3 months after his stroke. Well, they were wrong! His wife had fallen and broke her hip and he suddenly started getting better. He is in a scooter and also uses a walker. He does all of the grocery shopping; he drives and gets around just fine. He is as sharp as can be too. So in 2008 they said he was going to die in just a few months and now it is 2012. This is just one example of why I don’t believe doctors when they give a time frame on life. Only God knows.
So today after my long walk I took Princess for her walk. I walked for a while with my neighbor June. She owns a Chinese restaurant. She talked about her sister having breast cancer and how diabetes runs in her family. She said she is doing every thing to avoid these things. She said she knows she will die but she doesn’t want to suffer like she has seen with diabetes. Who knows who we will walk with tomorrow?
Our neighborhood is having a big garage sale on August 4th and 5th. I’m thinking of using this to raise money for our little friend Rowan. I’m thinking of asking neighbors to give a portion of their sales to Rowan. Of course I will give mine.
A friend wrote to me saying she felt like she wasn’t there for me when I needed her after Kathryn’s passing. She was out of town with work most of the time. Now she realizes that there are more important things to do with her time. I’m also finding that I also have been guilty of not helping others as much as I should because I’m always so busy with work. I think I have been doing a pretty good job lately but once school starts I need to remember that I still have time to give to others.
I was also told about a lady who chose to leave her kids at home while she goes camping with friends for a couple of days. There is more to this as she leaves them a lot. I have always taken every chance I had to spend time with my children never away from them. I have gone camping with them every summer since they were babies. Again I asked why does this person get to have beautiful children and she gets to keep all of them and she doesn’t even appreciate how special they are. I loved Kathryn so much and would have done anything for her and would give up time of my own to be with her at the drop of a pin and she was taken from me. It just doesn’t seem fair. Right now I can hear my 6th grade teacher, “Nothing in this world is fair.” That is what she told me. Of course I had a come back. “If there were less people like you the world would be more fair.” I guess I never knew how to hold my feelings back. But she was somewhat right. There are many things in this world that just aren’t fair. Why a Mom like me who worked to hard to have babies and then loved them so dearly should have to watch her baby die. It just isn’t right. I was thinking today that maybe the world is taking a turn for the very worst and God wanted to take Kathryn so she wouldn’t have to be a part of it. I can only think that he must have been saving her from evil to take her away like this.
My walk in the morning will clear my head. Then I plan to finish painting the carport. It is looking so much better. It was dirty and banged up. It hadn’t been painted for 14 years. The rest of the house was painted just a few years ago when we had new siding put on. But we didn’t do the carport because it had good siding. I really like projects like this because you can see results.
Our garden is doing great. We had a salad tonight with lettuce (2 kinds) and broccoli from our garden. One type of lettuce was given to us as a gift at Kathryn’s service. Scott also pulled a huge zucchini out of the garden. We gave it to our neighbors.
And finally today marks 24 weeks since Kathryn’s death. I can’t believe it has been this long. It seems like she was just here. We were in Mexico having a good time last July.