Sounders/Packwood 7-7-12/7-9-12

Saturday (7-7-12)

I started the day by doing some outside painting very quickly.  I finished just a little but it shows.  I had to hurry as I wanted to get all cleaned up before Richard and Lauren arrived.  Richard left earlier that he had first told me so I still drying my hair when they arrived.  We hung out for a while and then headed out for our night at the Sounders game.  Oh my, this was really VIP.  We had valet parking, and then we had a tour of the entire stadium.  We were seated at a table right on the centerline and just behind the little barrier.  We were given snacks and drinks.  Then a huge platter of prawns came out for us.  Our dinner was delivered at half time as we requested.  Scott and Richard had steaks that were so big.  Neither of them finished.  I had a huge chunk of Halibut and Lauren ordered Chicken.  Everything was delicious.  We were given sounders scarves, on jersey and a special sounders glass.  It was a fabulous night.  It was great to have Richard with us and see him have such a great time.  He enjoyed the game so much that he couldn’t believe it was over.  And they won!

Sunday 7-8-12

In the morning I walked the 5-mile drive and Lauren came with me only she ran.  She said it felt good to run.  Running always helps clear your mind.

Richard and Laruen left before noon.  Richard made his wonderful breakfast sandwiches for us.  Both he and Laruen had places to go and people to meet in Seattle and I had to get ready to go to Packwood.  It was tough.  I cried after they left.  I thought about life and how it is changing.  I thought about my life without Kathryn and Richard getting older and our time together becoming less and less.  One child is gone forever and the other is drifting away.  And I cried more and harder.

 On the ride to Packwood I became very depressed.  I couldn’t hold it back.  I cried again.  I even thought some things that I shouldn’t have thought.  Jumping out the van and ending the pain.  But I know I can’t do this.  Scott needs me and I couldn’t cause more pain in Richard’s life.  So I pushed those thoughts away.

By time we got to Packwood I was feeling a little better.  Don’t worry I’m fine and wouldn’t do anything stupid.  I started the Laundry and cleaning as we just had renters.  I took a little nap and after dinner I took a shower as Scott suggested it would make me feel better.  It did help.  There was a huge thunder and lighting storm.  We stood outside for a while and watched.  Angels bowling in heaven.  My Mom always told me that thunder was the Angels bowling in Heaven.  I also shared this with my children.  There were certainly a lot of strikes by those angels last night.  I remember one time coming home from a wedding.  There was a huge thunder and lighting storm.  When we drove up to the house there was Richard and Kathryn sitting on the front lawn with the babysitter watching the storm.   I guess they were not afraid like most little kids.  I think they were only 7 and 3 at the time.

Monday 7-9-12

A new day.  I did much better today.  Scott and I did a bunch of work around the cabin.  We always leave the place ready for renters so that means spotless.  I got the upstairs all clean.  As I vacuumed the floor in Kathryn’s room I thought about the big pirate ship that is drawn of the floor under the carpet.  When we first bought the cabin there wasn’t any carpet in Kathryn’s room.  Kathryn and her friend Lexie drew this big pirate ship on the floor.  I told them they could since we were going to get carpet later.  The two girls were really into Johnny Depp and the Pirates of the Caribbean.  Lexie made Kathryn a beautiful luminary that had a Pirate Ship cut out.  It was fantastic.  We saved all of the luminaries from her service.

Towards the end of the day we went swimming.  Our community in Packwood has a couple of pools and a 9-hole golf course.  It was 109 degrees there today. 

On our way home we stopped by my Mom’s for a short visit and then stopped to see my brother too. 

Good Night