Both Speeches Done 6-6-12
Finished my speeches now for both the Luminary Ceremony and the Tom Mosich spirit award. I have quotes from Kathryn in both speeches. As you can imagine I had to read through sever of her papers. It is so hard to do. She wrote some amazing things. She really didn’t let cancer take anything from her. Her spirit was so strong. She truly believed in helping others. She really wanted to help others with cancer. She wanted them to realize that cancer is a blessing. It gives you an appreciation for life that people without cancer just can’t understand. It allows you to live life fuller because you understand how precious life truly is. She wrote amazing things. It makes me cry to know that my child had such a wonderful spirit, love for life and such compassion for others.
I also read a letter one of her friends recently sent us. You could tell Kathryn knew her life was not going to go on much longer. I also read our Christmas letter that she wrote. Again she knew. But she also knew she wasn’t going to let go of life. She told her friend this past summer at camp she wasn’t concerned about herself. Whatever happened would go ahead and happen. She said she was only focusing on giving all the kids their best summer ever. And she did.
When I read these things I am blown away. My daughter was a true angel. She blessed so many people and inspired so many to do better, love more deeply and live life to the very fullest.
I don’t think I mentioned that I ran into Kathryn’s former soccer coach. He was really taken back to hear about Kathryn’s passing. I felt bad for him when I bluntly told him that she died. I could tell he was in pain and I felt bad. He kept apologizing for asking and I said it was ok and that I was glad that he asked. I did my best to soften the news. I happen to have one of the tri-folds with me from her service, so I gave it to him to read. I think this really helped.
Today I also worked on the Poke-a-dot room. Well, that made me go through more of Kathryn’s things. I had to go through her artwork. I framed a bunch of art of hers and Richard’s. I laid it all out to see how it would work on the wall. It looks good. Tomorrow Scott and I will put it all up. I also went through costumes and bags of t-shirts from her 2007 relay team. It was like the Poke-a-dot room was her second bedroom or should I say her art room and costume room. It was! I found the luminaries she had been working on for friends. I guess I will finish them. I made a luminary for Kathryn today while inspired by hers. I had been thinking about it for a while now. One of those things I think about that keep me awake at night. But not last night.
Speaking of sleep. Last night I took two of my turn off the thinking pills at one time. That worked! I went right to sleep and didn’t wake until 6:30. Then I said to myself I will just close my eyes for a couple more minutes. Next thing I knew it was 8:00. Scott asked me, “Did you feel me nudge you last night?” He was nudging me because I was snoring. I just told him it was pay backs. We just laughed about it.