Talking 5-11-12

Talking 5-11-12

Scott and I had an early morning because we needed to be at Ridgeway Motor Sports Park between 6:30 and 6:45 this morning.  It’s in Shelton so it takes 45minutes to an hour to get here.  That means we had to leave out house between 5:30 and 5:45.  The drive is long and it gives me time to think.  I did a good job of holding my own and not getting down or upset as I drove of course thinking of my little girl.

I helped with registration and some other little things mainly in the morning.  I had a nice conversation with the Lady who owns the driving school with her husband.  What a great couple.  They are so positive and do such a great job of making sure everyone is having a fantastic time.  In our conversation we did discuss Kathryn.  The lady doing the catering at lunch time also talked to me for a long time and finally Kathryn came up so I told her Kathryn’s story.  I was asked if talking about Kathryn helped and I said yes it does.  It really does help me.  I may choke a little when trying to hold back tears but that is ok.  I want you all to know that I like to talk about Kathryn.  I’m proud of her and her fight against cancer.  I also do not mind sharing about the day she died because I want people to understand how peaceful it was and how Kathryn was surrounded by loved ones and tenderly taken care of even after death.  I’m so proud of Richard for the way he cared for his sister.  I’m so glad Grandma was there to share with Kathryn her prayers and words of comfort.  I’m proud of how Team Bradley worked so well together caring for Kathryn’s every need. I need to talk about this to keep Kathryn’s memory alive.  I also need to share to help others understand and maybe help others through our story.

I finally drove at the end of the day in the very last session.  I drove by myself too.  I usually have an instructor because that is just what I like.  I know I don’t drive the line perfectly so I like someone with me to remind me how to drive this track better and faster.  I couldn’t believe that I got a little lightheaded going up the hill at one end and down the hill at the other end.  It stopped after 3 times around.  It was the strangest sensation.  Another lady became so nauseous from the up hill part that she only drove a few times around in the morning.  I never saw her go out after lunch either but I think she may have once or so.  I wasn’t going to drive because I didn’t want to go on my own but Scott talked me into it.  I’m so glad I drove.  It really releases tons of tension that I have built up inside of me. 

I’m falling asleep.  I know there was something else I wanted to share but can’t remember.  So, Good Night for now.