Rain Rain Go Away 5-1-12
Wow did it rain today.
It rained from the sky and it rained tears too. Both Scott and I had cry sessions. I don’t know why they just happen and
why they come at certain times but they do. I just have to get use to it.
I met with a lady this morning and I shared with her about
Kathryn because we were discussing weight. I have put on a few pounds. The stress has added onto my girly figure a few extra curves
that don’t belong on my body. She
shared that she lost a good friend in her mid thirties to cervical cancer. Her friend passed away in March. She drove all the way to Squiem every
weekend for many weeks to visit her friend. That’s a commitment.
Her friend went one year without a pap and this is what happened. The darn cancer just snuck in and took
her life that quickly. It is a
lesson to learn. Don’t let your
check ups go. So she and I shared
a box of kleenex.
After that I went to see my friend Robyn. I promised I would work on painting her
bedroom for her. And now is a
great time since it is raining and raining. I took a look at what was in store for me. I think I can do the whole thing in one
day. Hopefully I can do it in one
day. If not two days. So, tomorrow I will get there at 9 am
and get started. My Mom is next on
my list. I will be helping her
repair some scraps and bangs from my Dad’s wheel chair and then paint. That will be a couple of days.
We also went to visit Robyn’s Aunt who is in the hospital
with an abscess on her bowel. I
felt so bad for her. I’m glad we
went to visit and on the way out I asked about what they had her on. Just checking to make sure they had her
on pain and antinausea meds. They
did. She really needed rest so we
didn’t stay long.
I have also been thinking about the WWU Relay for Life. I have been asked to be the speaker at
it. I have been really thinking a
lot about what I should say.
There’s so much to say but I don’t want to bore anyone. What point or points should I
make? Of course I will speak about
Kathryn but to what extent? There
are good things to mention and of course the fact that Cancer Sucks and it took
her life. We have a long way to go
still. We need to save people
without giving them things that create more cancer. This is too common and it has been just accepted as
something that happens. Usually
the secondary cancer is deadly from what I have seen. Some survive but not enough. I have a lot to think about before the relay.
I also met with the rep for the yearbook. You see that is part of my job at
school is to create the yearbook.
The rep has really stepped up.
He has spend a tremendous number of hours in my classroom helping my
subs get things done so we would have a half way descent yearbook. All deadlines have been met so far and
only one left. Without his help no
deadlines would have been met.
What a great guy. He spent
a couple of hours with me today too.
We looked at an alternative way to do the yearbook for next year. After spending so much time in my
classroom with my old computers he really thinks this new way would be so much
faster, easier and less frustrating.
I like that Idea. He also
gave me a bunch of websites that I could use to learn how to use photoshop
better. So many great ideas!. We may pay a little bit more for this
company but you do get what you pay for.
The support he gave us this past year has been worth every extra penny
and thousands more.
I’m excited for next year with the new program.
I smell Kathryn right now. I love this smell because I know it is her. I loved and still love her so
much. Again I have said that I am
lucky to have Richard who is so caring and loving. My Dad had said something long ago. It was after I had Richard and before I
had Kathryn. He said, “You have to
have a second child.” He said, “ I
don’t mean this in a negative way but you never know what could happen and if
you should lose one then you would still have another child.” My Dad was a thinker and I always
thought about that once Kathryn was diagnosed with cancer. I had let it out of my brain while she
was well. But once she was
diagnosed the second time I remembered it and thought about it. Thinking back on how he said it so
caring and loving. He was an only
child. I think he also didn’t want
my child to be an only child. I
think he always wanted a sibling. He
was so right so many times. He was
also so sensitive to Kathryn’s disease.
He came in his wheel chair to visit her when she had her brain surgery
in April of 2010. He hated
hospitals but he came to visit because it was Kathryn. He almost got sick. The pain he felt for her make him not
feel well at all. It will be one
year since my Dad passed away on May 5th. I’m sure he greeted her with open arms, a big hug and a big
kiss. I miss the hugs and kisses
from both of them. They both loved
with so much passion and with everything they had to give. I think I miss them because they both
loved me unconditionally.
Good Night
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