A Little help from my friends 5-10-12
I had emailed a friend of mine about Kathryn. So many people have told me that she was an angel sent to us or that she was a gift from God on loan to us. Some have said that she is now an angel. Kathryn is very special and I myself have not met someone who faced life with such a positive attitude when given such a bad disease. She believed in sharing her joy with others in fact she wrote that it was her obligation to share her joy with others.
As my sister-in-law said the other day, “Kathryn was a watcher.” She did sit back and watch people. She studied people and knew just what they needed because she paid attention. She knew how to make someone happy because she noticed people and wanted to make their lives better.
So, I asked my friend his take on Kathryn being an angel and he gave me a quote from the bible. I knew he would help me understand a bit more. He has a great relationship with God. One that I wish I had. Maybe I will some day. The next two paragraphs are what he shared with me.
“Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.” (1 Corinthians 6:19-20 ESV)
I believe that every one of us is here on this earth for a reason – placed here by God. Quoting Bill Cosby, “I brought you into this world and I can take you out.” What we do with our life is our choice, whether to live for God or for ourselves – it’s the sovereignty of man. Since we are owned by God, He decides when it’s time for us to leave this world. Our body is just a temporary shell for our soul, which is eternal. It is unfortunate that some people don’t recognize that.
Our bodies are just a temporary shell for our soul, which is eternal. We are owned by God. I think I’m getting it. God loves Kathryn and called her to be with him.
I also had a nice email from a friend (the one who wrote the book and also lost her daughter to cancer). Her daughter was Kathryn too only she went by Katie. She understands what I am going through. She has been there. She is a few years ahead of me in this process so she knows when to make contact with me. She knew Mother’s Day would be difficult. Scott and I are hosting Mother’s Day at our house on Sunday and I will be childless. Richard will be in Bellingham and Kathryn is gone. I think it has been bothering me and that is why I had been so emotional yesterday. I have actually been sick to my stomach too. Wow, what stress and anxiety will do to a person.
Today was a better day in part because of the emails I received.
Scott took down the rest of Christmas in Kathryn’s room today. I know that was hard for him to do and I appreciate him doing it. We both joked later that Kathryn would say, “It’s about time.”
Scott and I cut down the Cherry Blossom tree today. It died the spring (2010) Kathryn was diagnosed with her Glioblastoma. Scott said that tree will burn and send many spirits into the sky. We all loved that tree. Even our neighbors loved that tree. It was the most beautiful tree with so many blossoms. I have never seen one like this one anywhere.
My friend Leslie is speaking at a fundraiser for Camp Goodtimes. She called tonight to see if we wanted to go. We said yes of course. She read me her speech over the phone and it is perfect. It shares her passion for camp. Richard and his girlfriend Katherine (Bee) are going too. It should be a fun evening.
Scott and I are working at the track tomorrow. I will be helping with registration and he will be instructing. He actually gets paid for this and my pay is I will be able to drive later in the day. But I have to be there between 6:30 and 6:45. This track is in Shelton so it takes an hour to get there. Early morning!