The Day After 5-14-12

The Day After 5-14-12

The day after Mother’s Day…  It was harder than Mother’s Day itself.  Last night I became really sick feeling.  All hot and yuck.  So getting up this morning was hard.  I was so tired and just exhausted.  I just felt very down and icky.

Then we realized that Kathryn’s cat (Klyde) hadn’t come home.  He had been out all night and it was now 10 am or so and not here.  So, Scott and I took a little walk to go look for him.  We ran into our neighbor Young and asked her if she had seen Klyde.  She saw him last night and this morning.  I was so relieved.  That Klyde can’t get hurt or go missing.  I would feel so bad.  When we came home form our walk there he was waiting for us.  Thank goodness!

I started working in the yard and this is when I just broke down and cried.  It was uncontrollable.  I just cried loudly and couldn’t pull myself together.  So I just sat in the chair with a towel over my face and cried into it.  This crying fit came over me a couple of times.  I just couldn’t get myself together.  I guess I need time to cry. 

I think today was so hard because I saw and read about Mom’s and daughters.  I saw beautiful photos of Mothers with their daughters and I don’t have mine here.  I miss Kathryn so much.  She was such a huge part of my life. 

The yard work will continue tomorrow as I prepare for my garden that Richard has grown starts for.  I’m excited to see him this weekend and getting my garden starts and going to the Farmer’s Market with him. 

This is still like it is a big bad dream.  When reality hits it hits hard.

Hopefully I can work in the yard tomorrow without any tears.