Bump in the Night 5-16-12
First off I would like to say thank you to those of you who made a comment or sent me an email about my speech.
Last night something crashed during the night. A bump in the night. That was at 1:57 am. It scared me and I kind of looked around in my room and just peeked out our bedroom door. I didn’t want to wake Scott so I just locked the bedroom door. I figured if it was a person I would hear the door and be able to do something in the time I gave myself. I couldn’t sleep well the rest of the night. But one wonderful thing did happen. I finally had a dream about Kathryn. The only thing I remember about it is that we were giving each other hugs. Long tight hugs. It was so real. It made me feel peaceful just like her sweet hug would always do. This is the first dream I have had about Kathryn. I have been praying for this.
When I got up I checked all around the house for something that may have fallen or something the cat may have knocked over in the night. Nothing! There was nothing out of place and I know where everything is in the house. Scott said the noise was probably Kathryn letting us know she is here.
The other day a friend wrote me a nice email about loss. She talked about her divorce and how it changed the course of her life. The plans she had for herself and her family were now all changed. The dreams she had were gone. The future she had planned had no future at all. It is much like the loss of Kathryn. The vacations Scott and I put together for our children and their spouses will not happen the same way. The wedding dress I was going to make will never be sown. The babies I hoped to spoil will never be. A big chunk of our future is now an empty hole. Any loss must feel similar. Change as I have always said is something I don’t really like. This has been a big change.
I went to the fabric store to buy a few more things for the dinosaur costume. While there a young woman came up to me and said, “I noticed your shirt.” I was wearing a shirt from the City of Hope Walk that raises money for breast cancer. Then she said, “I was wondering if you know of any support groups for people with breast cancer, I have breast cancer.” She went on to tell how she has called a person on base and they have not called back. I told her about the City of Hope and the American Cancer Society of which both should be able to give her the name of a support group. I wished her well as I left.
Scott and I worked on building my garden boxes today. Success! We made 12 of them and tomorrow I will finish a couple of sprinklers and then dig out the dirt to get the boxes in place. Then I will get a yard of garden dirt. I will get some of the plants from Richard this weekend. We are also going to the Farmer’s Market in Bellingham to maybe buy some plants as well. I may get a few plants tomorrow and plant them since I have more space than Richard has plants. I’m excited to get it all started. I tried a garden a couple of years ago. That was the year that nobody had luck with their gardens because of the large amounts of rain and lack of sun. This time I am better prepared too.
All in all a good day!
To bed early as I give blood in Tacoma at 8:30. Yep, I could sleep in but remember I schedule things so I have to get up and moving. But not too early!
Good Night – Sweet Dreams (Maybe I will see Kathryn in mine again)