14 Weeks 5-10-12
It’s another Thursday which marks another week that has passed. 98 days seems like a ling time. It still feels like it isn’t real. She should be coming home form college for Mother’s Day this weekend. Or I will see her the next weekend when I go to Bellingham for the Relay. If she were here I would be going to the Relay to support Kathryn. I’m still going in support of Kathryn but not in the way I would like to be supporting her. I would like to be supporting her on her wonderful work as a committee member and not as a life lost to this disease.
I usually write at night but last night I couldn’t do it. Yesterday was a hard day full of emotions. Scott even had a hard time with taking down Kathryn’s Christmas stuff in her room. Not done yet. It isn’t easy and I think it actually gets harder. Some one said it is now the quiet time and the quiet time is the hard time. Quiet meaning that all of the things around someone’s death have stopped. We had all the cards and flowers. All of the planning and arrangements. We had thank yous to write. There were so many things were going on and now they have slowed almost to a stop.
Today Scott and I will be working on taking down the dead Cherry blossom tree in the back yard. Scott started on it yesterday. It was a favorite tree of Kathryn’s and it bloomed right around her no more chemo day (May 5th). The tree had so many blossoms that they covered the ground like snow. The kids even made blossom balls, like snow balls. It is hard to see it go. It actually died a while ago but last spring we didn’t take it down to make sure it was really dead. There were no blossoms or leaves. A little bird had made her home in the bird house that was hanging in the tree so Scott had to move it to the other tree. We hope she finds it. I’m sure she will. Not a very pretty bird house but there is no vacancy every year.
Need to get started on the day. We have a lot to do since we will be hosting Mother’s Day and we will be gone Friday and Saturday. That means everything must be done by the end of today.
Have a great day!