14 Weeks 5-10-12
It’s another Thursday which marks another week that has
passed. 98 days seems like a ling
time. It still feels like it isn’t
real. She should be coming home
form college for Mother’s Day this weekend. Or I will see her the next weekend when I go to Bellingham
for the Relay. If she were here I
would be going to the Relay to support Kathryn. I’m still going in support of Kathryn but not in the way I
would like to be supporting her. I
would like to be supporting her on her wonderful work as a committee member and
not as a life lost to this disease.
I usually write at night but last night I couldn’t do
it. Yesterday was a hard day full
of emotions. Scott even had a hard
time with taking down Kathryn’s Christmas stuff in her room. Not done yet. It isn’t easy and I think it actually gets harder. Some one said it is now the quiet time
and the quiet time is the hard time.
Quiet meaning that all of the things around someone’s death have
stopped. We had all the cards and
flowers. All of the planning and
arrangements. We had thank yous to
write. There were so many things
were going on and now they have slowed almost to a stop.
Today Scott and I will be working on taking down the dead
Cherry blossom tree in the back yard.
Scott started on it yesterday.
It was a favorite tree of Kathryn’s and it bloomed right around her no
more chemo day (May 5th).
The tree had so many blossoms that they covered the ground like
snow. The kids even made blossom
balls, like snow balls. It is hard
to see it go. It actually died a
while ago but last spring we didn’t take it down to make sure it was really
dead. There were no blossoms or
leaves. A little bird had made her
home in the bird house that was hanging in the tree so Scott had to move it to
the other tree. We hope she finds
it. I’m sure she will. Not a very pretty bird house but there
is no vacancy every year.
Need to get started on the day. We have a lot to do since we will be hosting Mother’s Day
and we will be gone Friday and Saturday.
That means everything must be done by the end of today.
Have a great day!
Dear Carol, I know that sometimes the holidays (like Mother's Day) can be hard emotionally after our children have gone on ahead of us. I am sending special {{{HUGS}}} to you through cyberspace for this first Mother's Day that your Kathryn is in heaven. I think all of our kids are sending their most tender love to their Moms from heaven!
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