Last night before I went to bed I prayed for Kathryn to visit me. To give me comfort even if only that sweet smell. I hadn’t had that smell around a lot lately and so I prayed for it.
I woke last night at 2:15 to the sweet smell as strong as ever. I had spots on my arm that got goose bumps. Just a little spot like a touch. I laid there and told Kathryn I loved her with all of my heart. I talked a bit and then I got up to use the bathroom. When I got up I got goose bumps all over my body and felt chilled. It was so strong I couldn’t believe it. When I got up this morning I actually had a smile on my face. I think was the first time for a very long time. Scott even commented on the smile. He said something like, “It’s nice to see your smile in the morning again.”
So, most of you saw that I wrote to Theresa the Long Island Medium. I guess I messed up and gave too much info so I will probably never win the free time with her. That’s ok. As I watched tonight it was about her daughter’s boyfriend whose friend had died 2 months earlier. He died of cancer very quickly but that is not the important thing here. He told her that he is ok and that he really appreciated all of the things they were done in his honor. It made me think that Kathryn would say she is fine and that she too appreciated the things we are doing in her honor. She would be so proud of us and happy at what we are doing in her honor and memory. This made me feel pretty good.
I also had a visit today. The Jehovah Witness people came by to my house today. I always listen and chat with them. They know about Kathryn. They read me several verses from the bible that really did comfort me. I know a lot of people don’t like them but I feel they are just trying to do what God has asked us all to do and that is to spread the word of God. Anyhow I appreciated them sharing verses from the bible to try to bring comfort to me. I also was able to share with them all the crazy things I have prayed for and they said that my prayers were fine and expected.
What have I prayed for? First of course I prayed for Kathryn to be healed. I prayed every day and many times a day. I told God that we would be witnesses of his great power and love if Kathryn was healed. I hoped that each morning towards the end that she would wake up and open her eyes like she did every morning but instead of laying there she would get up out of bed and say good morning. Once she passed away I prayed that she would come back to life. I prayed to God and Jesus to resurrect her just like Jesus resurrected Lazereth. I don’t know how to spell it sorry. I prayed this for at least a month after her death. I told God that we would spread the word about his great power again. Of course I have also told God how angry I am with him.
Many people have lost loved ones and they finally get by. I know that I will never “get over” Kathryn’s death but I will find peace. I’m closer today than yesterday. I have to remember that I will see her again when the resurrection comes.
I put the family room back together after painting. I love the pictures on the wall. I love those photos that Mooselips took of Richard and Kathryn at camp on the beach. Now they are in the most used room in the house and they look beautiful. Thank you Mooselips for the beautiful photos.