Project Runway 3-15-12
Last night after writing the blog I clicked on a picture of Kathryn and looked at it for a while. I zoomed in and zoomed back out. I looked at her beautiful smile and the twinkle in her eyes. I just couldn’t imagine her as gone. I know of all of eternity and how I will see her again. I do have that faith but sometimes it just doesn’t help. It just isn’t enough to have faith and believe to stop the pain and tears. I clicked on a second picture and it was actually the slide show and music from her service. I had to stop it as fast as I could. I couldn’t bring myself to watch or listen to the music.
When I went to bed I just cried and cried.
Richard told me I couldn’t write about me cutting his hair last night because he wanted to surprise his girlfriend. Well it was the first time I used clippers ever. He chose the length and I did the sheering. It turned out really nice. He looks great!
Today was lazy. I did get some more thank you cards out and I have them all really done now. I had a few with out addresses and took care of those. I forgot to say we received a beautiful bouquet of flowers yesterday. Love it! I also donated blood today. I looked at the chart and only 7% of the population has “O” neg and with this type of blood I can donate to every blood type. No other blood type can donate to everyone. But I can only receive blood from “O” neg. It hurt more than usual today but I am still glad I did it.
I’m sitting here tonight braiding a lanny and watching Project Runway All Stars. Kathryn would be here by my side. She should be here with me as we both love watching this show and braiding lannies. Maybe she is here but we can’t share our little comments that we would normally. Well it is a Kathryn evening doing by myself what we liked to share together.a
Oh yes, remember the heart doctor said that sometimes spirits will let you know they are there by ringing the telephone. Well the phone rang and no one was there when I said hello and usually a number shows up on the display but this time it said number unavailable. Just the way the doctor described it. Was that Kathryn? Maybe! I would like to think so.