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Kathryn Bradley was born on 2/5/91 and given a Hawaiian name Kahiwalani meaning "Gift From Heaven" She has been a special gift from the day she was born.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Never Give Up 3-23-12

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much!" ~ Mother Teresa

I have thought of this quote often.  If God doesn’t give me more than I can handle I just can’t imagine what he is thinking.  Does he think I am made of steel?  I just can’t figure how I am supposed to handle this.  I guess I am doing it but it is tough.  The roller coaster ride is one with big ups and downs.  I guess he must really trust Richard, Scott and myself and many others who have been hit hard by Kathryn’s death.

I’ve also been thinking about our Christmas card.  I know it is early to think of Christmas 2012.  Our Christmas card has had a picture of all four of us on it for years.  Kathryn is the fourth member of our family and I have been wondering how I will include her on the card.  Do I take a picture from the past of her and add it to the card?  Do we draw a picture of Kathryn and take a picture with it?  I feel our card would not be complete without some representation of Kathryn.  Any ideas?

Scott and I went to the cabin to ski with Richard and his girlfriend Katherine.  This was a great thing to do since it kept us busy physically and mentally.  It helped keep those sad feelings away.  While I skied with Richard and Katherine today I did a little calculating.  I have a lot of years on these guys (25 to 28 years).  No wonder I get tired.  I don’t usually ski through trees but I did today.  Oh my goodness!  The snow was so deep too.  Thank goodness Katherine stayed close to me as I fell and got buried.  She helped me up.  It would have taken a very long while without her help.  I was glad to hear that everyone, Katherine and three other friends all thought this was a tough run too.  Not just me.  Of course Richard just thought it was great!

It was a great time.  Well, spending time with my kids (even ones I didn’t give birth to) is always the best.  Scott and I do a pretty good job of keeping up.

On our way home there was something on the radio about a young woman who survived stage 4 colon cancer.  Her comment made me think of Kathryn, “I have so much love and support around me that it would be a tragedy to give up.”  Those could have easily been Kathryn’s own words.  She never gave up because she had all the love and support of all of her family and friends.  Even people who didn’t know her supported her.  I had a woman one time call me over to her car once I had Kathryn in my car and she asked me for Kathryn’s name.  She gave me a vile of holy oil and also told me she was going to pray for Kathryn.  Something just touched her.  It was probably Kathryn’s smile.  Even walking out of the clinic after treatment she would smile. 

We should always support and love one another.  And we should never give up!  I have a t-shirt that says “Never Give Up” on it.  Good words to live by.

Going to watch “Project Runway” with Kathryn now.  She’ll be here. 
Good Night


  1. Please never give up. We all love her and can love each other through her even if we didn't know each other directly. She just keeps spreading love!!

    Sending you, your family, and all our friends my love love love all the time. I know I only met you once, but I'm sure I know you somewhat through your lovely daughter.

  2. K-Ryn will be in your Christmas picture no matter what. We all loved and miss her tremendously but we dont forget what she brought us. She is now in and with all of us.

  3. This past Christmas I made a card on the Wal Mart web site. It had 6 spots for pictures and then across the middle there was space for words. I put a picture of each of my children and their families in each square. I still have one son who isn't married so I had a picture taken of him and my husband and I. I included a picture of Kristen in one of the squares. The message read "Merry Christmas from Heaven and Earth."
    It brought me so much peace that I think I will do something similar each year. I can e-mail you a copy of the card it you would like.

  4. Carol, take all the time you need to grieve. It doesn't have to be done in a day! We will all be grieving for a long, long time...it is ok. Julie