Moving Along – 2-21-12
Moving along with getting things together for the service. Did a little shopping and organizing of Kathryn’s life. Found some poems that she wrote and one really hit me hard. She wrote one for each of us and mine said in it that my biggest fear was losing a loved one. She knew me well. I never wanted a day like February 2nd to come my way. To lose Kathryn is so so hard. However I can remember how very peaceful is was too. She died right next to me. I held her little hand and kissed her. We all told her we loved her. She didn’t suffer. She just went to sleep.
Today Scott asked me about that smell that I smell which tells me she is near. I started to smell it a couple of days before she passed away. Scott said maybe she was already out of her body. Maybe her spirit was already released. It could be because she became nonresponsive about the time I started smelling that sweet smell. It could be that she was trying to leave and just going back and forth for a couple of days. I had asked her to tell Jesus that she didn’t want to go. But maybe heaven was so beautiful and the feeling so wonderful that she just had to go.
Today I also spoke to my sister-in-law about how fortunate we were. We had a normal healthy Kathryn for many years. She had a wonderful life full of fun and good times. She had family and friends who adored her and loved her so much. I had so many good times with her as did so many other people. I don’t think anyone can think of a bad moment with Kathryn. They were all good.
Life is what you make it! A quote Kathryn had written down. It is what you make it. Nobody has control of your feelings but you. Nobody makes decisions for you. You are in charge of your own life and what makes you happy. Please don’t expect others to make you happy or things to make you happy. Your happiness lies within your own heart. She also wrote that you can’t lose happiness when you share it. Sharing your happiness with others only gives you more. Wise beyond her years. That was said today too. She was very wise and knew how to live every moment in a meaningful way. Meaningful and positive. She said that cancer gave her this ability to live her life with the glass always half full. She wore that smile because she wasn’t going to waste a second being unhappy. That reminds me of a time when a boy had broken up with her. I had never seen her sad like this. She said, “He took away my happiness.” I told her, “No, Nobody can take away your happiness. You may be hurting now but he could not and did not take away your happiness.” I remember this like it was yesterday. This sad time didn’t last very long as she sprang right back and found her happiness. Even being told she only had a few months to live didn’t knock her down. We still found joy, happiness and laughter. We kept things light and didn’t dwell on the negative. We focused on hope. We had hope for a cure and never let go of our hope.
So, make your life what you want it to be and share your happiness with as many people as you can. Nobody can take your happiness but you can certainly share it.
1.) The Service and Celebration of Life is on the 25th at Noon at Emmanuel Lutheran
Church 1315 North Stevens
2.) Don’t wear black – Bright and Vibrant just like Kathryn
What Can You Do
1.) If you know what a Luminaria is please make a beautiful one for Kathryn and mail it to our home prior to the service. We will be using them in the service. Address: 6711 71st St Ct W Lakewood, WA 98499
2.) If you don’t know what a Luminaria is you can bring a vase of flowers for the tables – but make sure it has a bright bow around the vase. Let Carol (Mom) know if you are bringing a vase of flowers so we can keep track of how many.
3.) If you would like to bring food to the Celebration of Life just let Carol (Mom) know that too. We will have main items already provided. So, salads and desserts are needed.
Carol’s email: firstname.lastname@example.org
4.) Bring your stories and smiles. Bring your happiness!